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Genting Notice

2009-03-09T23:56:00.003+08:00

Away for Genting Highland, from 10/03 - 12/03.
Reach me by my hp, thks! =)

2009-02-13T17:59:00.003+08:00

It seems ages since I last blogged, and i bet everyone is going to kill me for this. Well, i'm already used to the killings... lol.

Life has been soo busy and tiring, especially for cny. Honestly speaking, I didn't have a break at all during cny. I still have to work on New Year Eve, and only had a day off on CNY day itself. Well, it doesn't seem to be an off-day since i still have to go out and visit relatives. Don't you think that cny is also another kind of sociable kind of activity? It doesn't appear to me in the past, but now, yes!

Restaurant started open on 27th jan (which is 2nd of chinese lunar mth). I worked like hell, and only got to take a short break of 2 hours in between each and every day. This routine lasted till 9th feb, which is the 15th of that chinese lunar mth. The most funny thing was I have class on 初六, which is from 2.30pm till 9.30pm, and i had to skip the 2nd session just to be back for work, since it's short-handed. Can u imagine how busy I am?

enough of my complaints... I was tempted to buy sony ericsson model G705 or G900, because both have the functions that I yearned for, which is the WIFI part. I'm still thinking on which model to buy since my bro has already taken G705, and I don't feel like having the same phone as him. Then you will think I will definitely go for G900, but I still can't deny the fact that G705 is better. It's just a pity that it's a slip-phone, which I would rather prefer "normal" to slip one. Well, it's always that nothing is perfect, and hp is not an exception too. lol. Looks like I have to take a long time to decide on which hp to buy. =X

I saw this moonlight resonance dvd (limited edition) on HK's hmv website months ago. The selling price at then was only HK$599. I was broke that time and thought of buying 1-2 months later. And guess what? The selling price is HK$925 now! More expensive by HK$ 326 bucks. Moreover, I've calculated, with shipping fees included, that would cost around HK$1065. I was stunned... really stunned! How can it become soooo expensive within 2 months time? I phoned my HK friend and asked her to check for me the market price in HK. To my surprise, they still stick to the old pricing of HK$599, and that stupid HMx actually charged a higher price lor! I wouldn't even stupid till buy from that website lah~ But that means i have to make a trip to HK liao.... which I dunno when will that day be? I felt heartache of not purchasing 2 months ago!!!! aww.....

old memories have been filling my mind recently, esp when I saw wenchien posted those pics in the facebook which we took in our olden days. I really missed those days where we joked, teased and suan-ed each other. Though meetup can be a way to bring back the old memories, the feeling is no longer the same. In the past, we were naive and joked innocently, like as if there's no tomorrow for us. But now, the feeling is different. We are using today's perspective to look aback, finding that how innocent we were in the past, and how mature we are now in present... As we laughed at our then ignorance, we are actually becoming more mature. well, Man learns to grow up, aren't we? =)

2008-12-04T02:26:00.007+08:00

Michelle finally won the TV Queen of 2008!!! Congrats!
And after sooo many pesters from my friends, i decided to put up the wallpapers & avatars that i've made. Enjoy!

This is what i made for the TVB 41st Lighting Ceremony, for encouraging my fellow Michelle fans and boosting their morale. And i'm glad that all my effort were paid off. =)

A wallpaper of her walking on the red carpet.

This was when she was announced as the winner of Best Actress Award 2008.
The man who hugged her was Adam Cheng. And, it's really a sweet moment indeed!

Avatars:

Well done, Michelle! You done us proud!!!! =)Hooray!!!!

Random: mugging very hard for F5 subject. F4 has cleared, and i really hope that I can get a decent pass. I'm not expecting too much, just a pass will do. I'm just tired of memorising the sections and definitions of corporate LAW~ it can really drive you mad. No kidding....

Random pics of me

2008-10-29T01:07:00.011+08:00

These were taken when I attended a wedding banquet of my cousin (not really a cousin by blood. He's the son of my nanny, whom I always address him as Brother). The man on my right is my Uncle Papa, and the woman on my left is my Auntie Mama (and she's my nanny when I was young)

I remember there was a heavy rain going on that day, and I was soooo lazy to bring an umbrella. My maid asked me to wear on a cap instead, and I really tried on this cap which was bought in HK Disneyland. And I was playful to have this picture taken down =P

I was taking care of my baby niece, Steffie at that moment, and took a picture of us out of boredom. But since the picture of us was sooo blurred that I decided not to put up, and put up mine instead. =P

I was in the car waiting for my bro to bring his dvd player for repair. We were having a lunch meet at a japanese restaurant that day, and were supposed to enjoy ourselves, but the mood was later dampened by Dad's annoying NNN calls.. =( Anyway, the food was nice, just that we waited quite long for the food to come.

Random: Tracy Wong's songs are nice! Her voice is alluring and soothing, that makes one at ease while listening to her songs. Not forgetting to mention, our names are just different by one "e". lols...

2008-10-15T23:44:00.005+08:00

MICHELLE YIM YOUTUBERS

http://www.youtube.com/group/michelleclan

MichelleClan has just created a group in youtube, and it's specially dedicated to our one and only, Michelle. The name for that group is Michelle Yim Tubers. Welcome fans who are interested to join us! =)

I've super duper tired recently. Perhaps have to manage between work and school work, and forum work too! And, what a busy lady I am! sigh..

2008-10-03T02:34:00.006+08:00

She appeared in a pink gown on 30th Sept

Stunning and elegantly

Charming smile, classy hairstyle

She's glamorous

Like an unreachable star

That one has been yearning

To stay near

She's a lady in my heart

Who will stay in there

Eternal and eternally.

2008-09-28T18:18:00.007+08:00

Yesterday, Royal Medic had specially organized a bday party for Michelle. As expected, many reporters were there too, including TVB Entertainment News reporter. Thus, not only it's a fans gathering, but also a party which would be telecasted, making known to the world. Most of my friends went for the party, and enjoyed themselves very very much! Well, how i wish I could be there enjoying myself too ! sobz... my parents don't allow me to attend it... And I was so upset over this... =(

Ok, enough of my complaints.... Let's talk about the happy things about the party!

Guess what?! Michelle love the present we gave her! Aww.....! And the present-giving moment was taken and recorded by the media too!!! What a great surprise I had from my friends! Michelle said the gifts were nicely made, with all our heartfelt concerns and wishes in it! She simply loves them! And yes, I can see it from her expression!!! For a moment, I'm so proud of myself that I made a right choice - making her my idol!!! isn't it?!

These are the gifts that we, "michelleclan" gave her:

Left: That's the case for Michelle's portrait
Right: The portrait was made of the words of blessing from our fans to her. Click on the picture to zoom it, and you'll realize that the outline is all made of wordings! (Well, I spent a total of 24 days in making this portrait, and it's really my fruit of labour!! I was so glad that Michelle is fond of it!)

Left: That's the cover of the little genuine book, which contains our blessings and wishes for Michelle!Right: The back cover of the book (lols, this took me about 2-3 days to make, hee)

Left: That's the cover of the organiser that we specially made for Michelle. Is the design nice?! Right: The back cover of the organiserBottom: That's the inner page of the organiser. The reporter was impressed by this organiser too! Very nice right?! And I'm proud to say, "it's all done by MICHELLECLAN!" Aren't we terrific?! *million of claps*

Millions of thanks to friends who went for the party, especially Mummy Waiwai who took the pains and effort to carry these gifts from her house to the place. And thanks to Yin who made the organiser and wasted a lot of inks in printing the portraits and genuine book! Thanks to Wen Wen who designed the cover page of the organiser! And thanks to friends and fans who joined us for this special and meaningful events! You guys are simply great!!!

Lols, not forgeting to mention about me, thanks myself for the splendid creativity and idea of coming up with the making of these bday gifts, even though I've forgotten how it came across my mind~~~ =P

Anyway, I'm just happy and excited!!!! Cheers to Michelle and MichelleClan! Yay! I'll put up some video clips later, that features how elated Michelle was when she received the gifts! =P

Can I be proud for this very one time?! hee....

Pls refer to: http://www.michelleclan.com/ to view more pictures of the day itself. =)

2008-08-19T09:47:00.002+08:00

I passed F2 and F3, scored 70 and 68 respectively. All thanks to Amanda who made me so nervous yesterday! She kept rambling on "I'm very scared for my results leh... How?" this kind of topic, causing me who initially felt nothing at all becoming quite tense up later. =( On the way back home yesterday, she called and spoke loudly. By then, I already knew that she passed both her subject. And I was right! Well, that left me a great worry, especially for my F3 since that was the toughest among the 3 subjects I took. Fortunately, all passed...! phew... and that was a great great relief!

I'm becoming quite worry for my F4 Law subject, especially those lectured and taught by Mr. Viknes. I can understand his lecture in the morning, but not in the afternoon. You know... afternoon lecture always tend to be sleepy and not attentive. So I slept in the midst of the lecture without me even knowing. =( Something bad was announced yesterday... We will have to sit for a Law test next thursday! So how am I going to revise and pass this darn boring theory subject? sigh...

Good luck to me....!

2008-08-14T16:41:00.004+08:00

http://blog.tvb.com/michelleyim/

Michelle has an official blog now! So thrilled to know that! Although the blogger may not be her, it's still kind of excited to know that TVB has actually made her a blog. That shows how greatly TVB values her!

Back to my foul mood...

I received an sms yesterday telling me that F5 class is cancelled on this friday. Well, for a moment I was so happy because I finally got the chance to see Michelle! But.... things happened... Elder sis-in-law can't accompany me to Genting since there's no people to tend the branch for her. I approached Hui Ting, and she can't make it since she need to travel back to her hometown. Other friends are not free too... So.. can u imagine how sad I am yesterday? I cried... Do you know how much I want to see her?! Really really really very much!

How I wish the class is not cancelled on friday, or else I wouldn't even be more disappointed than before. The sms gave me a ray of hope, but at the same time, it pushes me to even more disappointment... Are we not fated?

And when is the next time I can get to see her?!

2008-08-06T00:33:00.002+08:00

Currently listening: Haruna No Ni by Nakajima Miyuki

I'm under the torment of this bad flu... Been blowing nose non-stop for the entire day... And my colleague teased me for being weak & feeble =x... Started working at branch today, managing the main shop and branch's accounts at the same time. Thought that this is the start of doom, but I was so happy when I heard that there's a cashier coming to start work tomorrow! Well... the ray of hope came at the right time... yeah!

Went to have supper with Alice & Su Fen at Island Red Cafe. The meal is on Alice as she promised to treat us. So Su Fen and I ordered some ex meal.. (but it's not any ex at all... much much more cheaper than the treat I gave in George & Dragon Cafe)

We ordered:
Boxing Chicken
Nasi Lemak
Tom Yam Soup
Penang Chicken Lor Bak
Mixed Rojak
Seafood Beancurd
HK Milk Tea
Orange Juice and
Sunshine Mixed Fruit Drinks

I shared Tom Yam soup with Alice, and Su Fen was responsible for her Nasi Lemak. Thus, she's darn full after eating her food, and I'm only quarter full since I ate little. I tried to online using my laptop but failed due to the communication error between us and the waitress... Dad called me during the supper, asking me why was I not home yet? well, it's expected.... He's naggy at times, but think wisely! He won't even bother about wasting his saliva in nagging around if you mean nothing to him. Someone said that I've grown sensible! In a sense that I learned to think and care for people now. And I think it's quite true, because as one turns older, he or she will see things in a different way. To be precise, we have grown up! Aren't we? =)

Missed Moonlight Resonance today...! Guess I have to wake up early the next morning to catch up the drama. Btw, Michelle's acting as a villain is awesome! Much more better than I expected! Well done, Michelle! You made us proud! *claps*

2008-07-24T00:28:00.007+08:00

Finally clear F1 paper! Scored 71 out of 100. The paper was quite tough, because we were tested more on general questions, rather than those theories learned in books. So it's actually quite difficult in a sense....

I was quite troubled with this matter recently. She's a good friend of mine, and I always regard her as my sis. I've angered her in certain way that our frienship is now on the verge of coming to an end. I've emailed her, and sincerly hope for her forgiveness. Will I succeed?

There's too many things happened recently. My baby nephew, Hon Yu was hospitalised of a suspected lungs infection. Thus, he is under observation now, and has been in hospital for days. Mum and I have to take over 2nd sis-in-law's place, where we take turns for afternoon and evening shift. I managed to clear her work yesterday, checking through the amount of mountains of bills and invoices. And that have been over 2-weeks kind of work, where there are already 20 pieces of invoices each day. So can you imagine how the 14 days of bills would be like? =( 14-days-work have to be completed by 1 day, until to the extent that my eyesight blurred. =(

Received news that Michelle will be coming to Malaysia's Genting Highland for a charity night show. But i think my chances of attending it will be low since Mum disapproves me of going. The reasons she gave were:
1) there'll be a lot of functions for the restaurant to make.
2) it's rather dangerous to go especially in the month of Hungry Ghost Festival.

Well, these reasons were quite true, but I can make an exception to the first one. But she still disallows it... sigh... When will be the next time I can meet Michelle in person?! Looks like there won't be a day then.... sigh

2008-07-14T18:26:00.002+08:00

Suppose to sit for a computer-based exam today, but it was postponed to next monday due to the bad connection of the ACCA website. Well, my plan was all disrupted. I planned to go for a facial session after the exam, and even intended to have a nice dinner with my friends. To be precise, I already had the week scheduled! No one expects such a turnout...! Oww.... That means I have to study for another week! Sobz. I was thinking of clearing the subject as soon as possible, so that I won't be troubling over this anymore. But now, I don't think so....

1 word to conclude: Tired!

2008-07-02T11:20:00.008+08:00

2nd of September is Michelle's birthday. With the arrival of this coming day, MichelleClan forum welcomes you to join us for this special event, "Best Wishes Happy Birthday"

For more details: http://www.michelleclan.com/viewthread.php?tid=1273&extra=page%3D1

2008-06-25T22:46:00.007+08:00

This is the first Michelle MTV i watched, when I first worked in dad's company as a disc jockey. I truly love those days spending my time in the DJ room searching and playing songs for the customers. It's quite a wonderful experience as I'm exposed to many nice songs that I never knew and listened before. And I guess if it weren't for that, I would never know Michelle appeared in such MTVs, even with Adam Cheng too! I was thrilled, greatly thrilled! Due to time constraints in the DJ room, I only managed to watch Heavenly Sword Dragon Sabre MTV, and thought there may be some more MTVs. Thus I brought the album back home, and searched for Michelle's appearance.

Heaven was kind to me, and I found another precious MTV！And this is the MTV I found! I really enjoy watching this MTVs, not only because Michelle is in it, but the story are well-written, sorrow but touching too. The MTV talks about a righteous swordman called Ding Ying (acted by Adam) having to save the world from falling into the hands of the evil, battlingagainst the blood demon, the head of the evil force.Unfortunately, he was hurt by the blood curse, the most venomous poison used by the blood demon, during the midst of fighting. The blood curse was so strong that Ding Ying was unable to retaliate and he finally collapsed. As the disciples of the ice-castle have been tracking down Ding Ying, they finally found him laying unconscious at the mount of Zu. At that moment, Fortress Yao Chi, the mistress of the ice-castle appeared and descended from the sky. Without much saying, she took him to the mountain cave to heal his illness. However as the blood curse was too powerful, it exploded within Ding Ying's body. Upon seeing him going berserk, Fortress Yao Chi sealed his accupoints from preventing him getting out of control. However, as she had already exhausted of those real qi (energy) while treating Ding Ying, this inevitably caused her to be internally injured. As Ding Ying is her love interest, she couldn't bear to see him becoming evil. Out of no choice, she gave him her celestial breath, knowing that this may put her and Ding Ying into danger. Since that was the last resort, she was actually making a bet that the righteous qi will triumph over the evil curse within his body. And she was right, but she has a price to pay. As both forces are acting aggressively in his body, Ding Ying burst again, and the blood curse was finally purged out. However, the forces were so tremendous that Fortress Yao Chi was shaken off the Zu mountain. And she was injured, badly injured! Blood seeped out from her lips, and death was the price she had to pay for loving Ding Ying deeply. Ding Ying was saddened by her death, and he hugged her tightly, promise her that even death will also not do them apart. (a silent promise!)

And that's the beautiful love story lies in the Zu Mountain.

2008-06-04T23:15:00.002+08:00

F3's finally over, so only left F2 to mug. OK! WORK HARD! so that I can proceed to the next level!

Claire Guo's song is nice! =)

2008-05-29T23:48:00.004+08:00

Retro feel. How's it?

2008-05-27T15:08:00.003+08:00

《Koigokoro》by Aikawa Nanase

I love this song when I was primary 3, and only got to know the title of this song 2 days back. =( This PV is really very cool and epic, featuring Aikawa Nanase as a rebellion teenager who dares to love and do things that one can never have the guts to do. Enjoy!

2008-05-12T11:59:00.007+08:00

I've actually come across this forward email by a friend of mine, which I think it's quite meaningful to share with everyone. Here's the content about:

Too Busy for a Friend...

One day a teacher asked her students to list the names of the other students in the room on two sheets of paper, leaving a space between each name.

Then she told them to think of the nicest thing they could say about each of their classmates and write it down.

It took the remainder of the class period to finish their assignment, and as the students left the room, each one handed in the papers.

That Saturday, the teacher wrote down the name of each student on a separate sheet of paper, and listed what everyone else had said about that individual.

On Monday she gave each student his or her list. Before long, the entire class was smiling. 'Really?' she heard whispered. 'I never knew that Imeant anything to anyone!' and, 'I didn't know others liked me somuch,' were most of the comments.

No one ever mentioned those papers in class again. She never knew if theydiscussed them after class or with their parents, but it didn't matter.The exercise had accomplished its purpose. The students were happy with themselves and one another. That group of students moved on.

Several years later, one of the students was killed in

VietNam and his teacher attended the funeral of that special student. She had never seen a serviceman in a military coffin before. He looked so handsome, so mature.

The church was packed with his friends. One by one those who loved him tooka last walk by the coffin. The teacher was the last one to bless the coffin.

As she stood there, one of the soldiers who acted as pallbearer came up toher. 'Were you Mark's math teacher?' he asked. She nodded: 'yes.' Then he said: 'Mark talked about you a lot.'

Afterthe funeral, most of Mark's former classmates went together to a luncheon. Mark's mother and father were there, obviously waiting to speak with his teacher.

'We want to show you something,' his father said, taking a wallet out ofhis pocket 'They found this on Mark when he was killed. We thought you might recognize it.'

Opening the billfold, he carefully removed two worn pieces of notebook paperthat had obviously been taped, folded and refolded many times. The teacher knew without looking that the papers were the ones on which she had listed all the good things each of Mark's classmates had said about him.

'Thank you so much for doing that,' Mark's mother said. 'As you can see, Mark treasured it.'

Allof Mark's former classmates started to gather around. Charlie smiled rather sheepishly and said, 'I still have my list. It's in the top drawer of my desk at home.'

Chuck's wife said, 'Chuck asked me to put his in our wedding album.'

'I have mine too,' Marilyn said. 'It's in my diary'

Then Vicki, another classmate, reached into her pocketbook, took out her wallet and showed her worn and frazzled list to the group. 'I carry this with me at all times,' Vicki said and without batting an eyelash,she continued: 'I think we all saved our lists'

That's when the teacher finally sat down and cried. She cried for Mark and for all his friends who would never see him again.
Thedensity of people in society is so thick that we forget that life will end one day. And we don't know when that one day will be.

So please, tell the people you love and care for, that they are special and important. Tell them, before it is too late.

And One Way To Accomplish This Is: Forward this message on. If you do not send it, you will have, once again passed up the wonderful opportunityto do something nice and beautiful. But it's up to U to fwd this one.

If you've received this, it is because someone cares for you and it means there is probably at least someone for whom you care.

If you're 'too busy' to take those few minutes right now to forward thismessage on, would this be the VERY first time you didn't do that littlething that would make a difference in your relationships?

The more people that you send this to, the better you'll be at reaching out to those you care about.

Remember, you read what you saw. What you put into the lives of others comes back into your own.

May Your Day Be Blessed As Special As You

XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

For once and the first time, I've actually sent out this email to my other friends, because I find this mail very truthful. In a sense that we are always too preoccupied with our work that we didn't really stop and take a rest to care about the people around us. Does it speak of you? For me, yes! Until that very day, I came to realize that I've been giving out little care and my kins were the ones who have been showering me love and concern. This really embarassed me as I've always been the one who is receiving these affections, and yet I'm also the one who is giving them less. Thus, I came to know how to care for people even though I may be busy with work. A little word like "Have you eaten your lunch" or "Have you been sleeping well?" can also be a way of concern, it is just a matter of whether you really care for them or not.

2008-05-07T12:43:00.013+08:00

This is my favourite mug, and other than me, no one can use it since it's my personal mug. =) It's actually a bday gift from Yixi. Nice and sweet right? And I really treasure it a lot. Thanks Yixi!

A caricature of me, drawn by Yixi. Do we look alike? =)

Recent pic of me. Do I look more chubby?

Never Give Up! Jia you...! =)

2008-05-01T15:49:00.003+08:00

Made a wallpaper while I was having my break just now.

Avatar

Signatures.

2008-04-24T21:08:00.004+08:00

TIRED! MUGGING-IN-PROGRESS!

greatly hope that I can clear the 3 subjects!

And remember that: me myself is in control, and I'll never fail!

2008-04-21T17:54:00.003+08:00

Michelle Yim's New Forum -> www.michelleclan.com

This forum is set up 3 mths ago, by me and my 2 other friends, waiwai and yin. There're many great things inside, and I really enjoy myself being there. I've made friends with some of the fans there, and it's really a great pleasure that you make friends that share the same interest with you, esp overseas friends. I didn't know that there are quite a no. of overseas fans who are fond of Michelle too. I enjoy chatting with them, esp their culture, country and why are they so fond of Michelle. There are times that we are crazy, and there are also times for us to be serious in any events related to Michelle. I found my true self there even though internet world maybe just fake and artificial. You'll never know unless you visit there! =)

2008-04-10T15:16:00.005+08:00

Finally 20... I'm no longer teens... sigh, i've become the member of twenties, and will soon be the thirties and so on... Time flies. Looking back, I was still an innocent baby girl who only knows how to cry, eat and sleep. And now, I'm already a working lady. So we must really try to do as much things as possible when we were in our teens, after all it's the prime years of our lives, and it'll be forever gone once we're stepping into the gate of twenties. Though my teenage years are ordinary, I'm relieved that there're still some sweet and nice memories in it, and it really feels good when we reminisce it.

I'm fortunate to meet one secondary friend, who's still my best friend after we graduated from the same sec sch and same college. She's Wen Chien. I must really thank her for always being there with me through thick and thin. Though we may have quarrels at times, this did not strain our relationship, in fact, we are closer than before. I still remember my primary sch best friend, Qiu Ting. She never fails to rmb my birthday even though we may have talked less after graduating from pri sch. Not forgetting about Yixi, who's my blood sister, she's a good listener whom I always look up to whenever i'm troubled. She comforted me and always give me some advices, which I think really very meaningful. A piece of good advice may be just a few words, but it's enough for us to remember it, because it contains the deepest concern that the person had for you. Nobody will bother wasting their time and saliva in talking you round if you mean nothing to them.

Anyway, I really find friendship is the greatest birthday present. Just yesterday, I received many smses from friends wishing me happy birthday. It may be just a few simple words, it's enough to keep me contented. At least they still rmb there's a girl in this world called pei fang whose bday is today. And I must say, "thank you, all! You filled up my world, lives and memories beautiful!"

2008-03-18T00:59:00.003+08:00

Away for Genting Highland from 18/03 - 22/03! Reach me by my hp! thks.

Ipod

2008-03-01T19:11:00.006+08:00

sorry for not blogging for many weeks, since i'm very busy with my school, office and forum work! Sometimes, i've been thinking that time is really too little for me, as I've no time to spare for my friends and family. When was the last time that I met up with my friends? I suppose there's been 2 mths or long... Didn't really shop relaxingly for a long time... I still rmb that I did a very "rush shopping" before cny just to get a new year clothes. Just shop for the sake of shopping~ To make it sounds bad, it's MEANINGLESS~

I bought an 8GB ipod nano silver in colour. It cost me RM 769... goodness... it's ex! but since it's a reward for my 1 year of hard work, it's still worth the price... Sometimes, we must really pamper ourselves. A little treat can motivates us and brightens up our day. I bought a pink colour cover casing, and according to the salesgirl, the casing is specially designed for ipod nano, so the selling price is RM85... what duh.... even the casing is ex lor...! So pls don't ever say a half-eaten apple is rubbish. See how valuable Apple Ipod is....!

Here's the pic of the ipod that i bought:

2008-01-20T17:23:00.000+08:00

it's been long since I last posted... But there's really nth to post as i'm so busy with both my school and work. Well, my da sao (elder sis-in-law) is on maternity leave, and i have to take over her job in the branch. Sigh... All my 6 days are fully booked, except for sunday which is left for my sch homework day. Sigh... NO LIFE AT ALL... I rmb asking my da sao a question yesterday, which i thought quite silly...

Me: Da sao, do you find this 1 month maternity leave tired?
Da sao: Yes, of course tired lor...
Me: I'm even more tired than you lor... Unbearable 1 mth...

And she laughed..... what the hell.... I have to attend school and have my own office work, and now plus her work in branch, I ended up being a superwoman with 3 jobs to do now...! Unbearable....! Worked in branch yesterday, and omg... the wedding dinner ended so late that I threw my temper! Becos I was having headache at that time, and was hoping that it wld end soon. But things came out the other way... So how can you expect me not to be fuming? I got home around 12.30am. And the most omg thing was I only ate 1.5 meals yesterday. 1 meal in the morning (which is breakfast), and the half meal is dinner at 5pm. Why is it half meal? Becos I only took a bite and left for work since time is rushing. Pathetic.... Too hungry that I have no appetite at all, and went to have a cup of hot milk before turning in... haiz.. that's how pathetic my yesterday was....

2007-12-03T23:14:00.001+08:00

I finally bought Nakajima Miyuki-san's EAST ASIA album from jap HMV website, and it cost me 120 bucks.. But I don't feel any heartache at all... Perhaps it's like what people said, you won't feel pain when u are buying things that you really like. So I guess this somehow happened on me. hee.. The album, East Asia is really worth buying, since it has a lot of nice songs in it.

Miyuki-san's music rawks! And I've been listening to them each and everyday. I think it's been 2 weeks or more, and I don't even feel sick of it. Miracle! Cos I often grow tired of listening to any songs less than 2 days.

2007-12-01T23:49:00.000+08:00

Have you ever wondered what's the background music of my blog? Ok, it's Mikaeri Bijin 見返り美人 (or beautiful woman looking back), sang by Nakajima Miyuki. I was attracted to this song when I first heard it on youtube. As I was working in the office then, so I just listened without watching the video. The tune is really melodious, and as sad as it is. After the music has finished, I couldn't resist to click on the "play" button to replay it, and I watched the video. Goodness, my tears nearly blurted out while watching. I'm not sure whether is the storyline touching or the song is heartrending, or both? I don't know, but one thing I'm very sure of is I'm already attracted to miyuki-san's music. Her music is really very unforgettable. I started to search for this song lyrics and I finally found one, with english translation too. At then, I told myself I must learn to sing this song, and with the lyrics found, I tried to translate the japanese hiragana to romanji by myself. Although the process is tedious & time-consuming, I think it is worthwhile as I have a great sense of accomplishment through translating and learning at the same time. I learn to read some jap hiragana, and it's obvious that I'm better than before. Yup, and I'm very interested in japanese culture, and as well as its language. I feel like learning japanese, but I don't know where to learn, hee... From her music, I realize how silly and foolish I am for this 19 yrs. Thks to miyuki-san for widening my exposure to another language, another culture and another life philosophy. Thanks.

Below is the romanji lyrics for Mikaeri Bijin, translated by me.

Mikaeri Bijin
by nakajima miyuki

mado kara miorosu mafuyu no umiga
ai ha owarito oshiete kureru
koware tate no nami noshi buki ga
kaze ni owarete mune made semaru

tome te kureru kato senaka matte tawa
kutsuwo hiroi nagara sukoshi ma attawa
jiyuu jiyuu hidoi kotoba ne
sameta onnani otoko ga megumu

ave maria demo tsubuyaki nagara
atashi betsujin kawa atte ageru
mimagou bakari kawa atte ageru

datte samishi kute mikaeri no bijin
naki nu rete happou bijin
datte samishi kute mikaeri no bijin
naki nu rete happou bijin

hito bann naitara onna ha bijin
umare kawaatte hakujou bijin
tooru hitonin shina dare tsu ite
kagaminiutsuru ai tsu wo miru no

ki ite kureru kato uwasa nagashitari
kini shite kureru kato wazato aretari
iino iino daredemo iino
aitsu dena keya kokoro ha sabaku

ave maria demo tsubuyaki nagara
atashi betsujin kawa atte ageru
mimagou bakari kawa atte ageru

datte samishi kute mikaeri no bijin
naki nu rete happou bijin
datte samishi kute mikaeri no bijin
naki nu rete happou bijin

ave maria demo tsubuyaki nagara
atashi betsujin kawa atte ageru
mimagou bakari kawa atte ageru

datte samishi kute mikaeri no bijin
naki nu rete happou bijin
datte samishi kute mikaeri no bijin
naki nu rete happou bijin

English translation: translated by GregSharp
Beautiful Woman Looking Back

Looking down from the window, the winter sea
Teaches me the end of love is here
The spray of the breaking waves
Are carried by the wind near to my heart
As if to ask me to stop, my own spine holds me back
Picking up my shoes, I hold back
Freedom, freedom, what a terrible word
Men have mercy on cold women
Muttering Ave Maria
I will change into another person
I will change into someone who seems real
A “beautiful woman looking back” is so lonely
Face covered with tears, but still everyone’s friend
A “beautiful woman looking back” is so lonely
Face covered with tears, but still everyone’s friend
If a woman cries for a single night, she becomes beautiful
She is reborn into cold and unfeeling beauty
She snuggles close to those others who pass by
But she sees only him in the mirror
She starts rumors to see if he is listening
She goes berserk to see if he is paying attention
Fine, fine, anyone would be fine
If he is not with me, my heart is a desert
Muttering Ave Maria
I will change into another person
I will change into someone who seems real
A “beautiful woman looking back” is so lonely
Face covered with tears, but still everyone’s friend
A “beautiful woman looking back” is so lonely
Face covered with tears, but still everyone’s friend

地上の星 chijou no hoshi

2007-11-22T17:43:00.000+08:00

Title: 地上の星
Lyrics & Music : Nakajima Miyuki
作詞・作曲：中島みゆき

風の中のすばる
砂の中の銀河
みんな何処へ行った　見送られることもなく
草原のペガサス
街角のヴィーナス
みんな何処へ行った　見守られることもなく
地上にある星を誰も覚えていない
人は空ばかり見てる
つばめよ高い空から教えてよ　地上の星を
つばめよ地上の星は今　何処にあるのだろう

崖の上のジュピター
水底のシリウス
みんな何処へ行った　見守られることもなく
名立たるものを追って　輝くものを追って
人は氷ばかり掴む
つばめよ高い空から教えてよ　地上の星を
つばめよ地上の星は今　何処にあるのだろう

名立たるものを追って　輝くものを追って
人は氷ばかり掴む
風の中のすばる
砂の中の銀河
みんな何処へ行った　見送られることもなく
つばめよ高い空から教えてよ　地上の星を
つばめよ地上の星は今　何処にあるのだろう

An Earthly Star
by nakajima miyuki

kaze no naka no subaru
suna no naka no ginga
minna doko e itta miokurareru koto mo naku
sougen no pegasasu
machikado no viinasu
minna doko e itta mimamorareru koto mo naku
chijou ni aru hoshi wo dare mo oboete inai
hito wa sora bakari miteru
tsubame yo takai sora kara oshiete yo chijou no hoshi wo
tsubame yo chijou no hoshi wa ima doko ni aru no darou

gake no ue no jupitaa
minasoko no shiriusu
minna doko e itta mimamorareru koto mo naku
nadataru mono wo otte kagayaku mono wo otte
hito wa kaori bakari tsukamu
tsubame yo takai sora kara oshiete yo chijou no hoshi wo
tsubame yo chijou no hoshi wa ima doko ni aru no darou

nadataru mono wo otte kagayaku mono wo otte
hito wa kaori bakari tsukamu
kaze no naka no subaru
suna no naka no ginga
minna doko e itta miokurareru koto mo naku
tsubame yo takai sora kara oshiete yo chijou no hoshi wo
tsubame yo chijou no hoshi wa ima doko ni aru no darou

+++++++++++++++

This is the theme song for a TV show called ''Project X Chosenshatachi (The Challengers)''. This song is some sort of a miracle of Japanese music, because was on the top 100 charts for over 3 years! Omg.... 3 years! Can u imagine this song has been on the chart for 3 years, and this miracle is actually created by Nakajima Miyuki-san! Gosh... I love this song just as the lyrics are simple but powerful and provocative at the same time. It's like whenever I sing, I feel like I'm conquering the whole world... And it's also due to Miyuki-san's very strong and formidable voice that resonates on this song. Once again, I still can't imagine that a song can be on top of the charts for so long...! Especially over 3 years time! Darn.... I'm so obsessed with her now!
Below is the english translation:

地上の星
An Earthly Star

The Pleiades in the wind
The galaxy in the sand
Where has everyone gone, I never got to say farewell
The Pegasus in the plains
The Venus on the street corner
Where has everyone gone, I never got to watch over them
No one remembers the star on the earth
People look only to the sky
Swallows, show me from the vast sky, the earthly star
Swallows, the earthly star, where is it now?

The Jupiter atop a cliff
The Sirius beneath the sea
Where has everyone gone, I never got to watch over them
Pursuing famous things, pursuing sparkling things
People grasp only ice
Swallows, show me from the vast sky, the earthly star
Swallows, the earthly star, where is it now?

Pursuing famous things, pursuing sparkling things
People grasp only ice
The Pleiades in the wind
A galaxy in the sand
Where has everyone gone, I never got to say farewell
Swallows, show me from the vast sky, the earthly star
Swallows, the earthly star, where is it now?

雨が空を捨てる日は Miyuki Nakajima

2007-11-21T01:09:00.000+08:00

雨が空を捨てる日は by 中島みゆき　

雨が空を捨てる日は　忘れた昔が　戸を叩く
忘れられない優しさで
車が着いたと　夢を告げる

空は風色　ため息模様　人待ち顔の　店じまい
雨が空を　見限って　あたしの心に　のり換える
雨が空を捨てる日は　直しあきらめる　首飾り
ひとつ　ふたつとつなげても
必ず終わりが　見あたらない

空は風色　ため息模様　人待ち顔の　店じまい
雨が空を見限って　あたしの心に　降りしきる

Ame ga sora wo suteru hi ha
by nakajima miyuki

Ame ga sora wo suteru hi ha
Wasureta mukashiga towo tataku
Wasure rarenai yasashi sa de
Kuruma ga tsu itatou yume wo tsugeru

Sora ha kaze iro tame iki moyou
Hito machi kao no mise jimai
Ame ga sora wo mika ite
Atashi no kokoroni nori kaeru

Ame ga sora wo suteru hi ha
Naoshi aki ra meru kubikazari
Hitotsu futa tsuto tsuna getemo
Kanarazu owariga miata ra nai

Sora ha kaze iro tame iki moyou
Hito machi kao no mise jimai
Ame ga sora wo mika ite
Atashi no kokoroni furishikiru

Sora ha kaze iro tame iki moyou
Hito machi kao no mise jimai
Ame ga sora wo mika ite
Atashi no kokoroni furishikiru

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I actually translated the jap hiragana to romanji by myself. Ok! I have a great sense of achievement. Well, I only remembered some hiragana words, and i think this is better than I knew nothing...! Anyway when I was about to post up the youtube clip, I found out that this video was removed... So sad... Nonetheless, this song is really nice and was written and composed by miyuki-san in 1976. Below is the english version translated by GregSharp:

雨が空を捨てる日は
The day the rain discards the sky

On the day the rain discards the sky
The forgotten past knocks on my door
With unforgettable kindness
Tells me a dream that a car has arrived

The sky is the color of wind as if it were to sigh
It is the face of someone waiting as the store is closed
The rain has abandoned the sky
And crossed over to my heart

The day the rain discards the sky
Is a necklace I become tired of fixing
Stringing together one or two
I will surely never see the end

The sky is the color of wind as if it were to sigh
It is the face of someone waiting as the store is closed
The rain has abandoned the sky
And is raining heavily in my heart

2007-11-17T16:25:00.000+08:00

this is my favourite MTV of Miyuki Nakajima! " 見返り美人", in romanji it's called, mikaeri bijin. Oh gosh... Miyuki is so ..... hmm.. I will say she's beautiful as it comes with the gorgeous meaning in it. I think this MTV shld be in late 1980s or early 1990s.

Why is it my fave?
1. The melody is sooooo nice!
2. So far, this is the only MTV that I can understand the storyline. And it's realy really touching!
3. The entire MTV is actually miyuki's idea. I remember the part where miyuki climbed up the building and there's a galaxy below her, was re and re-copied by many MTVs. This means that miyuki's concept of music & idea of MTV is actually far ahead of others.
4. Miyuki's acting here is really superb!

2007-11-15T16:23:00.000+08:00

I shall officially declare that Miyuki Nakajima is my 2nd idol, just right after Michelle Yim. I've been admiring her for years and it was until yesterday that I concede defeat - I realize that she was the original singer and composers for many melodious Chinese pop songs. For example, Fan Wei Qi's 最初的梦想，Faye Wong's 容易受伤的女人，人间，Teresa Teng's 漫步人生路，Feng Fei Fei's 潇洒的走。This clip is one of my favourite songs from Miss Nakajima, and the chinese version was re-sung by Feng Fei Fei in 1985. Shocked? I was shocked by the year too. This song was actually composed in 1983, and I really can't feel the age gap from the melody (not the singer), and that's how special Nakajima's music is. Even till today, Nakajima's music are still re-and-resung by many pop singers today. I'm in awe of her!

Chinese Version: 潇洒的走 by 凤飞飞
Original: この世に二人だけ by 中島みゆき Miyuki Nakajima

昨日的朋友悄悄的离去
就这样无声无息离开你
仿佛在你眼里感到无限的悲戚
好象夜雾层层笼罩你的心里
也许你从来不愿告诉我
我也不想再问你为什么
夏日风已吹远吹得无影又无踪
所以我将会忘记昨夜的你
别说爱情就是你的名和姓
就除了感情你都不愿再接近
破碎的心难填平昨日醉心的恋情
所以我将忘记你的背影

2007-11-09T23:20:00.000+08:00

I LIKE DRESS-UP!

2007-11-07T23:27:00.000+08:00

I change my blog layout again, and I specially use that uniquely green colour as the bg colour. To me, this colour is serene yet mysterious, alluring me to explore this green colour world.

Now then I realize that colours are so amazing, a simple colour can produce many similar colours, such as green colour can produce navy green, indigo etc... I'm in awe of them...!

I woke up at 4am this morning, only to find out that our kitchen is all flooded. If we were to delay any further, my bedroom will be the nxt target. My parents, me and my maid are cleaning up the wet area. Elder sis-in-law and elder bro was woken up by our noise. And they did not help us at all! darn... Then 2nd bro and er sao are soundly asleep that they didn't even know about this incident at all, until 9.30am in the morning.. We finished cleaning at around 6am, and I only managed to catch 3 hours of sleep. So, I only slept a total of 4 hours! And I was so sleepy the entire day, so sleepy that I actually napped for 3 hours! So dead....!

No wonder my eyes were twitching yesterday's night.... Bad OMEN!

2007-10-16T19:11:00.000+08:00

had my blogskin changed again.. nice?

Dream of The Red Chamber Siggies

2007-10-10T23:08:00.000+08:00

I've made some Dream of the Red Chamber Siggies out of boredom. Had stomach flu yesterday, and i'm not yet recovered.... But I can still work! Miracle.... but dozed off in the meantime... blehz.

2007-10-03T18:28:00.000+08:00

Fan Wei Qi's latest album is out, but I don't intend to buy, just feel like downloading online... I must really admit that Fan Wei Qi's songs are always so nice. From her first album till now, she has never failed to make us proud. I've uploaded one of the songs from the latest album, Shi Fei Ti, and made it my blog's background music. Enjoy the melodious tune sang by Fan Wei Qi!

I just got back from New Jazz Dance practice. Today's warm-up exercise is so tough, and my belly is numbing now. Time passes so fast today, with only a few steps taught and learnt today. Well, I just realize that dancing is really very very fun. Next time, you guys can go take up dancing! It's really fun and a great pleasure of seeing yourself dancing and successfully mastered the steps.

2007-09-14T23:02:00.000+08:00

On NKF charity nite'04, Michelle played zither and performed few stunts in-between. Undeniably, this marvellous performance impressed everyone, including me!

2007-09-10T18:40:00.000+08:00

Damian prepared a sumptuous dinner for Michelle, and even gave her a kiss to stop her from talking further.. hee

2007-09-02T15:35:00.000+08:00

today is 2nd of Sept,

Happy BIRTHDAY To Michelle!!!

Guess what? I actually talked to my idol over the phone yesterday! It's really unbelievable... For a moment, I thought I was dreaming and tried pinching my cheeks to see if it's real. Well... it pains a lot, so it's NOT A DREAM !

Michelle is so friendly and nice. She thanked me for the T-shirt I've made, and said that she like it very much... At that moment, I was thinking to myself, "as long as you like it, it doesn't matter".... I must really thank some of my friends who went to the party. And many thanks to my other friends who involved in making the Genuine book and Ingenious Present.

Guys, you all are just simply GREAT!

Whee.... I'm still in my own world "happily jumping and singing" now... It seems like I will only become normal 2-3 days later...

2007-08-30T15:13:00.000+08:00

changed my blogskin to sunflower... created by me... Nice?! I've been obsessed with sunflower recently, cos not only it symbolises sunny and radiant but it also means healthy too, which I'm lacking now... Terribly sick now, with sore throat, ulcer in the mouth, flu and nose block... Especially when it's nightime, couldn't even sleep well with the extreme nose block. I have to get up several times to blow my nose, so ended up having a tiring and exhausting night.

Mood quite foul today, perhaps it's due to the rainy weather. At first, thought of having my fringe trimmed, but it was held up due to the bad weather. Sigh... I have to wait for another day for the haircut... For a thought, it's really annoying to have your eyes being irritated and "itched" by the long fringe, especially when I'm turning or shaking my head, it's simply @#$%^&* !!!!

Baby Hon Yu just had his "full moon"(man yue) celebration yesterday.. The litte baby was soundly asleep no matter how disturbing and noisy the surrounding was... Guess what? The baby boy is sleeping now.. No wonder he fits the zodiac of this year, "PIG", =P so I shall address him little piggy from now on.. hehe

2007-08-25T22:28:00.000+08:00

Been busily making Michelle's Genuine book recently, and I've been late for work about 2 times this week... Fortunately my pay was not docked... =P

random pics of me.... Am I any chubbi-er? hee

2007-08-18T16:35:00.000+08:00

I printed a T-shirt yesterday, with Michelle's caricature in front and her name at the back. The caricature is designed by me using photoshop. Guess what? It only cost RM 39 only.. quite worthwhile.. Here's the pic of the T-shirt:

Front: Michelle's Caricature
Back: Michelle's name

Folded

Something terrified me today -- I put on weight!

Feel like crying now... Cry without tears~ After so much thinking, I finally made up my mind of cutting down my meal intake to 2 meals per day. Breakfast and Lunch, and that's enough to slim down.

Say NO to fats...
Say NO to oily food...
Say NO to Dinner & Supper... ...

2007-08-05T18:35:00.000+08:00

Sorry for not blogging these few days.. as I'm really very tired and busy to blog ever since my 2nd sis-in-law went on maternity leave. I've to take over her place. Well, I'm already very busy enough with my office accounts, this undeniably has increased my workload. Sad to say, I've not been sleeping and eating well for the past 6 days. Sleep while my mind is still working, and keep dreaming of whatever kinds of dreams, and always wake up with a weary body. No appetite to eat since I'm too tired & busy to be. Sadly, my only energy-giving KitKat was being finished by some awful people. And so far, I only have eaten 1 packet out of the 7 packets! Urgh! I'm ended up with no supplements to boost my energy now!

I'm having flu now, and i can't imagine what will be my outcome for the next 20 over days... So god, please bless me!

To those who left me a message in my tagboard, thks for your concern. I'm alright now.. There's no point in fretting and crying over people who is bad to you. I'm glad I'm not alone, I still have friends like you guys to walk along the path with me.. thanks a lot...

2007-07-30T17:04:00.000+08:00

I'm very sad & disappointed today. I was at the toilet while this group of gossipers came in. They talked a lot and suddenly I heard my name being mentioned. This is what one of them said: "She's so princess (tai zi nv), always put on that arrogant look. I feel like puking whenever she's friendly to me."

Her words are like a needle pricking hard into my flesh, so deep so that I couldn't help but crying. I swear I didn't! I really didn't! I did not do them wrong, but why are they doing this to me? One thing shocked me was a girl who is quite friend to me, actually involved in this backstabbing incident too. I tried calling her to demand for a reason, but she didn't pick up my call. Minutes later, I saw others calling her cellphone, and she picked up the call. It's obvious that she's avoiding me! I'm devastated now.....

I just want to ask a question and hope that I'll be given a truthful answer from whoever is reading this entry, "Am I so detestable?"

saddened....

2007-07-24T00:22:00.001+08:00

2nd of September is Michelle’s birthday. With the arrival of this coming day, Damian & Michelle Forum welcomes you to join us for this special event, “Genuine & Ingenuity - Michelle”.

Genuine Book – Write some birthday wishes or things that you want to say to Michelle!:
http://songxue.uu1001.com/read.php?tid-471.html

Ingenious Birthday Pressie Competition – Only one winner’s present will be handed to Michelle (individually):
http://songxue.uu1001.com/read.php?tid-472.html

Please surf our forum for more details, as well as to join us for this meaningful & special event.

2007-07-17T22:20:00.000+08:00

I'm in a very foul mood right now.. Cos i'm unable to attend a soccer match @ Jalan Besar Stadium tmr! Please don't be mistaken that I'm interested in soccer match, I'm just more concerned with the cheerleading team... hee.. Cos Michelle is involved in that cheerleading team.. And btw, it's not an ordinary soccer match, it's a match between Hong Kong & Singapore Celebrities Soccer team..

Missed the match bcos of time crash~ the match starts at 7 pm and it will probably end at around 9 plus. Adding up the time travelling back to m'sia, I may be home around 11-12 if it goes smooth. Sad to say, I have a test the next morning, and I'm afraid that I may not be able to make it on time. URGH~ @#%$*&!!!

Some more, the ticket booth is at Simei, can't expect me to travel all the way down to Simei just to buy a ticket right?!

I WANT TO SEE MICHELLE !!!

Sigh.. Really not fated to meet Michelle lah~~~ And this is not the first time, ok~ Is always just "1-day miss"... HK trip lah, autography session lah, blah blah... whatever lah~~ I'm just feeling very sad now.....

2007-07-10T01:20:00.000+08:00

These are the siggies that I've made for Damian & Michelle! Aren't they like a blissful couple?

DM OH YEAH!

2007-07-06T01:31:00.001+08:00

The Rainbow Connection Trailers... See how Ben & David trying to win over Michelle.. hehe.

2007-07-03T22:50:00.001+08:00

My feet are so painful now....

Went down to ubs yesterday, and found that the school doesn't offer full time course, my face immediately turned! Eyes rolled with that "what the hell!" face ! Hello, it was posted saying "full time course" on your website, and now you are telling me another story?! what the~~~~ and even said that they will contact me back at 2pm... well, ended up I'm the one looking back for you! that was like so #%@$&#!!!Irresponsible & inefficient worker + system! Guess what?! I've spent more than 5 bucks for the fare, and my heart is aching now... Why didn't you contact me and asked me to go straight to ACCA headquarters? Or else I wouldn't be spending so unnecessary! wasted lor!

So... what's the outcome? I have to go down to Singapore next week, before the registration close! =X I was like competing with the TIME now!

got to sleep early today, cos I'm having lesson tmr... shan't tell u what's the lesson about! hehe... only Jackson knows! so... go ask him!

2007-07-02T00:30:00.000+08:00

Michelle sang Tian Mi Mi during the ceremony. Wow! she sang so well!!! ***Millions of claps to her***

2007-06-27T16:32:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I received a news saying that Michelle fell into coma.. Fortunately, she has woken up and is already back in HK this morning. I really hope that she can get well soon.. Miss her laughter, miss her smile! Michelle, Get well soon!

2007-06-25T23:15:00.000+08:00

Sick!

The ladies in the Tan family were all badly sick today... Mum had stomach flu, Elder sis-in-law had fever, 2nd sis-in-law had diahoerea, while I had bad flu & cold. Dad was away for KL meeting, and the whole restaurant only left Elder bro & 2nd bro. Mum and I still had to get down for work despite our sickness, as 2nd bro is unable to cope alone... Poor me & mum!

My back is aching terribly now, until to the extent that I feel like it's going to break soon. Not only my back, my shoulder, my neck, or you can say the whole body is aching! I'm cold & drowsy right now...

Labels: Sick, Sick Go Away
And don't you ever come again!

2007-06-19T22:13:00.000+08:00

Today is Dad's chinese lunar bday (dumpling festival) and baby skye's bday too... Mum prepared a sumptuous lunch for us. There's vegetable, frozen chicken, pig liver, fried beancurd, prawns with vege, and last but not least, birthday noodles!

Look! Who has already tucked in?

Until today, I only came to know that PIG LIVER is a "must" dish during birthday celebration. According to the Teochew custom and beliefs, Pig Liver (Dir Gua) bears the same pronunciation as Official(Gua) in Teochew-dialect, so it means you will become an officer in future if you eat Pig liver during the celebration. Hmm, sounds bit funny? But we have to follow this tradition, as it is our responsibility to preserve this to the next generation. After the meal, we had agar-agar (with cendol) as dessert! Oh my god, that was nice! =P

Here comes the baby skye, isn't the botak cute?!

2007-06-17T22:24:00.000+08:00

Currently playing: I will follow him

Still under the torment of the bad flu, and the head is still giddy.. restaurant is still as busy as every special occasion. Today's Father's day, and there's happy and sad memories happened on this special day. Since it's a joyful occasion, i shan't talk about the unhappiness.

I gave Dad a set of "Man's Thing". There's a belt, a wallet and a card holder. Dad must be very fond of it since I can see him smilling. Uncle came in the right time, and he envied Dad for having a Father's Day pressie specially prepared by me. =P
I guess Dad was touched by my words... He thanked me for giving him a pressie, and I said, "nah, not at all.. I should be the one saying thank you, thank you for taking care of me all these 19 years." Though I didn't tell him face-to-face, I can sense his happiness.

He already has too many things, and doesn't in need of any, perhaps it's the concern from his children that he needs the most.

The Rainbow Connection Trailers

2007-06-12T09:34:00.000+08:00

The Rainbow Connection trailers, starred Michelle Yim, Jeanette Aw, Julian Hee and more.

2007-06-01T22:14:00.000+08:00

Retro Michelle

Made a wallpaper today out of the blues, =P

Anguish and disappointment assailed me!

2007-05-30T00:35:00.000+08:00

ok, I started this entry with a heart of disappointment. I was actually cheated! cheated by 2 friends whom I trusted most. Well, I can be frank to them, can even confess to them that I'm that THE ONE. I treated them nicely and they are always the first to get the goodies. So what did I get in the end? Nothing but a CHEAT! It's C-H-E-A-T ! A LIE !

So how should I treat my other friends now? With all my heart given, or just put on a mask?

You made me realise that I'm the only one in this world that can be trusted! No one deserves my sincerity, and my trust. Only me myself! whatever and whatever~ I really feel that I'm very naive now..

Nobody can be trusted.... Nobody.... Nobody......

2007-05-28T17:31:00.000+08:00

Song: Hao Ting by Valen Hsu Ru Yun

I'm not feeling very well recently, physically and mentally... Thanks to the recent bad weather that I'm still under the torment of the long and persistent flu.. As for the psychologically illness, those 3 university applications that i've sent all gave the same answer - REJECTED! Sigh... I'm a bit sad right now... Well, I'm all lost now! What should be my next step? A lot of "should I and shoud I not" are cramming up right my mind now!

Perhaps a sleep will be able to solve my answers ~~

A penny of my thought: Why must they be woes and worries in this world? Why can't man just lead his life happily with no troubles ever and ever after?!

2007-05-23T19:29:00.000+08:00

Please mobilize other fans of Michelle Yim to leave messages to our idol in the blog set up by HK TVB.

Our icon is lagging behind with other actors in terms of the number of supporting messages in the blog set up by TVB.

The link is :-

http://app.tvb.com/board/drama/heart_of_greed_blog/blog05.asp

2007-05-18T23:55:00.000+08:00

I'm not a puppet to be manipulated!!!! Neither a football for you to kick~

2007-05-17T00:36:00.000+08:00

I'm pissed!!! DAMN PISSED RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-05-14T22:44:00.000+08:00

Greed of Heart - Michelle , Lee Si Kei & Kwan Kuk Ying related about their encounter, friendship in the show.

2007-05-11T12:42:00.000+08:00

Now i finally know the feelings of "hope being shattered" & "badly humiliated"... Dad suggested that we should open a shop that sells traditional foodstuff, since it's quite popular in malaysia now. Some more, there isn't any shop that is operating in our area. Thus, we should even take such opportunity to earn money. But the biggest problem is there is a lack of trustworthy person to tend the shop. Dad & Mum thought of me, and I was delighted. Because given my tender age, who is willing to let a young girl to manage the shop? Mum even said this, "If you are no longer studying, you can have the chance to tend it." Well, i know that I'm still in "pursuing studies" stage, but i'm still quite happy because at least I'm still highly thought of. However, all things shattered when eldest sis-in-law said something, "she's so young & inexperience, how can she manage? She only knows how to eat but not managing the business! moreoever, sources of traditional foodstuff are still a problem"

Well, I admit that I'm young & still inexperience in these area, but must you said these harsh things to me? Not even giving face to me! hello, I'm not the one who only knows how to eat but not managing the business! Or else Dad wouldn't even assigned me to manage company's accounts, not because of what, is because he thinks that i'm capable enough to do the accounts. Dunno who's the cause of messy accounts, and I've to adjust back for her~~ Please spend more time on the branch's business rather than picking on me and my 2nd sis-in-law. We are not just as free as you are!

Dad has his way of thinking, if he thinks that we can make it, we certainly will. If you have no suggestion to make, please respect the person who is talking and listen attentively. There's no reason for you to keep criticize people yet you have no feasible plan in mind. I just don't understand why people likes to be the center of attention? So what you've become one? If you have capabilities, it's alright to be one. But you are not, so why bother to be the one? Don't you feel that there's too much unnecessary burden to carry?

Hypocrites!

2007-04-25T17:59:00.000+08:00

i just detest hypocrites lor... Well, since u dare to use this ID (winne) to pick on people, but why don't you have the guts to admit ??? that sounds contradicting!

Oh please! please think before you talk! I thought you say that the third party better not involve in such conflicts right? But why are you doing the reverse way? Some more, you are saying a lot of rubbish!! Oops, so sorry, i regarded your words are rubbish because these are incorrect and it should be dumped in the rubbish bin. It should not come from the human's mouth! Oopss.. so sorry that i don't treat u as a human being...
http://bbs.michelleyim.com/dispbbs.asp?boardid=8&replyid=34472&id=2982&page=1&skin=0&Star=1

Please!!! Please get a life! Don't be so fake ok? you are just nobody to me! who you think you are? you are just somebody who know how to criticise but don't know how to appreciate life! Fakade~

I'm already prepared to leave... I look forward to the day that you fall and fail ! Not that I'm wicked or whatever, is just that you are hypocrite and you shldn't be highly regarded and respected by me!

shall end my entry here... for those who know me (I'm referring to my web friends ), you should know about this thing... and please don't blame me for being so mean and malevolent, because I'm forced to be...

MY BDAY MV

2007-04-20T00:15:00.001+08:00

A friend of mine created a MV for me as my Birthday pressie... Well, DM match! that's why it's a perfect n wonderful pressie.. hehe..

The song is Ai De Tai Chi sung by Leo Ku & Vivian Chow.

2007-03-21T23:12:00.000+08:00

Went to nus with yixi today.. Well, needless to say, the two blur ones got lost in the campus... Had a hard time to get to the admission office...

I'm very pissed now, ever since I was told of one shocking thingy during lunchtime. I felt so betrayed and cheated. Well, I didn't even know that I was boycott by a friend of mine few yrs ago. To think that he's still a friend that I highly regarded of. Over what? just over a piece of assignment! Why spend so much effort in boycotting? You could actually use that time, that effort to amend your assignments! Well, just a piece of good advice already cause him so much trouble! So if there's bad comments for him, I think he might can't take it and just jump off the building... kns... what a joke! Ya, save effort!

Well, if pple treat me nice, I will return the deeds 10 times back. If pple were to treat me bad, and I will be bad to them 100 times... Just see! I'll definitely discriminate him!!!

2007-03-14T18:04:00.000+08:00

I felt guilty... cos I didn't expect such a turnout. Though they said they don't mind, I'm still very uncomfortable with it. Esp when things are already arranged, and it's cancelled just because of me...

Had lunch with Dad n his friend. Uncle keep telling me about my dad's life when he was young. How wise and talented he is... But I just wonder is he boasting just to please Dad or it's really out of admiration? The lunch isnt' enough to fill my stomach.. Till now, I'm still very hungry... Think that I have a voracious appetite during lunchtime recently... No matter how much I ate, I still can't feel any fullness.. Only till dinner. I have no appetite at all. Same goes to breakfast... Looks like the 3 meals combine as lunch, 3 at 1 go...

TI-RED for the day!

2007-03-14T00:32:00.000+08:00

fake... Just dun understand why are people so fake? love to please another superior at the expense of the other... I just despise such people... please! who u think u are? U are just nothing... I'm very pissed off now... PLEASE GET A LIFE, my "beloved"! (wanna puke now...）

2007-03-12T20:33:00.000+08:00

what should I say? Happy? Tired? Pissed? Well, just dun understand why people are always in foul mood whenever I feel happy? Just pissed because they threw their temper on me unnecessarily... Tired of this mundane life! So urgh.. looks like only TV & computer are my companies...

I'm beginning to like Joanne Peh~ towards her character in Making Miracle in channel 8. esp her chemistry with David Chiang.. David is so calm and wen zhong! and speaks a fluent Mandarin.. As fluent as the chinese...

I'm finishing up the last few epi of The Brink Of Law... omg, Michelle is sooooo cunning..! Shall admit that her acting is fabulous! I'm more and more obsessed with her now... =)

2007-03-11T17:33:00.000+08:00

Very tired with the accounts recently... Thankfully, I manage to use 2 days to finish those piles of accounts...

Dad assigned a lot of stupid projects for me to do... so sianz.. why must he always have to be so.... urgh? After so much struggling, I finally came to this conclusion... I decided to try applying for NTU's accountancy. Next will be statistic , and the last one will be Chinese. And ya, chien.. thks for your concern.. I'm ok now.. It's already over, and the most impt thing now is to look forward to the future... =)

Just realise that my chinese essay is improving, even though I have not been doing any chinese writings for a year. Wrote this short essay for my beloved godma, Waiwai... and she's touched.. Happy Bday to my maji~! heex... enjoy ur bday!

I'm really obsessed with these 2 novels... 1. Legend of Princess Lian Yu 2. The hidden vault of chaos. The 2 stories keep filling up my mind...

signing off now... gtg take a nap or else will be very tired later at night....

2007-03-09T18:38:00.000+08:00

Went K-box with Yen n Sinn.. So high until that I nearly forgotten about my chin injury.... Sigh.. looks like the injury affects my voice. It was so soft and low~~ Bought a pink handphone pouch for myself... and the design is cool! A royal crown that looks like a heart-shape! After that, we went home since Yen need to work and Sinn will be having tuition in the evening...

The chin is still in black-green condition and the dry skin is slowly peeling off now... Well, it's still very painful because I always accidentally came into contact with it... The dry skin is making my whole chin n neck itchy and painful.... Have to keep applying lotion on it, if not, I will be crying like hell...

Really in love with Vincy's song very much! Hacken Lee's songs are quite nice too, esp his Gong Zhu Tai Zi... It's simply melodious!

That was like sigh.....

2007-03-06T18:03:00.000+08:00

Sigh.. I can neither eat nor talk well now ... Just because I hurt my chin! Oh godz... I slipped and fell, with my chin knocked onto the bathroom floor yesterday... Laid down there almost unconscious, and it was my kakak who held me up... Couldn't even stand properly. My chin was so painful! It bled profusely and nth could help to stop the flow of blood.... It was mummy n 2nd sis-in-law who kept applying many-unknown medicine on my chin that stop the bleeding.... Well, I was left with a big hole on my chin now! what a great "ANGPOW" I had after cny~~~ urgh

Well, the impact was so great that my whole chin is still in a numb.... Couldn't stretch my mouth too much or else u will hear a "mumbling cry"... But think positively, luckily it's not my head which was knocked onto, or else I may suffer from concussion...

But it's still painful~~~!!!! =(

Wallpaper

2007-03-01T01:54:00.000+08:00

Created by me, is it nice?! Bit "dreamy" and soft... I like this feeling... Especially when I listen to this song, Love Story... That's where my inspiration of this wallpaper came about... Comment so that I can improve on my skills... Enjoy!

Into Thin Air Clip

2007-02-23T23:52:00.000+08:00

INTO THIN AIR

A heartrending drama I've seen so far... I'm impressed with Michelle's excellent acting as a noble mother who is willing to sacrifice everything, including her life to recover her son from blindness... I really cried when I watched this drama, because it's simply touching and nice! This is also the reason for my ongoing flu 2 yrs ago.. hehe... serves me right?! who cares~~~~

2007-02-16T00:12:00.000+08:00

New year is coming in 1 more day.. so thrilled at the thinking of receiving hongbaos from elders and eating good food (yummy!)... So sad to say, think i really don't have any new year mood as the year grows older... Hmm, is it I'm the one who is so "moodless" or the new year ambience has been dying down these few yrs?

hehe, anyway, just wish everyone a HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! and wish we'll get a result of flying colours during that day itself..... hehe...

2007-02-14T01:30:00.000+08:00

Bought a new handphone le... FINALLY~~~ It's sony ericsson w810i... Just realise that my old nokia phone has been with me for 1 yr 7 mths & 11 days old... It must be knowing that I'm changing a new phone soon, that's why it keep throwing tantrum - my cover keep dropping out... Anw, I will still keep the old phone, as a memory to be cherished. and an alarm clock to wake me up every morning. =P

Quite like my new phone, and many many thanks to Mason, my cousin, who has been helping me all the while.. With the selection of the handphone to bargainning for a "reasonable" price, he had been doing every single thing while I didn't lay my hands on any thing since I was the one buying.. So Touched lor...

Hehe, can't express my gratitude in words, so next time treat u a bowl of white rice k? =P

2007-02-14T00:51:00.000+08:00

Just let the past be a dream; a dream that you can't recall when you've woken up..
Just put our past behind us, as it's already a history, and shouldn't be looked upon.
Every living thing moves, but forward rather than turning back.
So no point in dwelling upon the past,
as it is nothing but a thing to be kept in the locker.
To be locked forever....

Is this a self-motivation? or a self-assurance?
Or is it a mockery?
But saying is easier than action, everyone thought that they can do it, but little did they know that this is just a self-deception. Because the more one tries to forget about the past, the more he remembers it. And the more he minds...

Pissed

2007-02-11T02:04:00.000+08:00

I'm very pissed right now! Many many reasons!
1) Someone has been yearning for ur appearance, and when you turned up, he/she don't even care about you, so what's the point of saying "I MISS YOU" while on the other hand ignoring you? Redundant~

2) Please think for others too. Though you are not implicated into this stupid ridiculous thingy, please think for others! Just because you are not involved, that doesn't give u any excuse of not helping them! Survival?! what a joke~

3) Because of any stupid ulterior motive, that's why people treated u nice. Just wanted to make use of you to get their way, hello! I'm a human being! Not an object for you to use when you want to get to your way, and discard when I'm no longer needed~

4) Disregard ? If it weren't for me, I suppose you would already been dead long time ago... If I didn't support u, would u have been sitting comfortably on this post? Fat hope~ So if you've already placed your trust in me (where you claimed it to be~), so please dun doubt my capabilities and disregard me~ I just hate such things...

5) Innocence will not always remain innocence; it can be a set-up which tries to win over your sympathy... After so many things had happened, I just don't believe that you can be still be so innocent as ever~ So what's your motive? Try to win more people over? it's so fake~

PISSED PISSED PISSED! and all these things happened on me! and it's all because of that stupid, unnecessary incidents!

Please get a live, dun be so fake k? ~~~

2007-02-02T22:46:00.000+08:00

Oh my, just find out that Innova fun fair is just round the corner...! I'm really at sixes and sevens now... Because I can't take leave off that day especially when it's weekend! Well, just find that the school is so uh-hem...ridiculous?! Forcing us to buy that $10 coupon just to get us back to innova again! godz.. Are they afraid that we might lost our way back to innova during the results release day? hee... Anyway, I think they must be right somehow... Because given our stingy nature, we will surely attend the school fun fair just for the sake of that 10 DOLLARS COUPON!

But sigh... I can't make it! Well, I admit that I'm stingy =P, but I still can't take that day off! So guys, please forgive me for not attending!! SORRY!!! REALLY VERY VERY SORRY!!!!

Mich Obsession

2007-01-25T18:14:00.000+08:00

Created by me, is it nice?

Been crazy for her 16 years! Just can't imagine that I've liked for 16 yrs! A renowned HK actress. Not only her acting is good, but also possesses inner and outer beauty as well. So it's quite rare to find such a person in this world now.. hee

'Deeply obsessed with Mich~

Mixed feelings

2006-12-10T00:46:00.000+08:00

Started my first tuition lesson today. Now I finally know it isn't easy being a teacher:

1) In order to get ready for the lesson, you'll have to drag yourself out of the cosy bed no matter how tired you are.

2) Have to clear their doubts as much as you can, until to the extent that one whole bottle of water isn't enough to quench your thirst.

3) Have to ensure that your lesson is not boring until they can doze off any soon.

4) Instead of them compromising to your hectic schedule, you are the party who is doing the other way round.

5) Despite the umpteen times of explanation of deriving the answers, they will still give you the wrong answer.

6) Have to repeat the same old questions "do you get my meaning?" many many times.

7?Have to sponsor them crackers and milk if they are hungry.

8) Was doubted of your abilities of covering 3 chapters in 1 hour (In fact I did!)

oh my god~~ In the end, I was the one dozing off in the afternoon. Worst still, dozed off while working. Had to wash my face 2 times and eat a very sour orange just to keep myself awake. Goodness~

That stupid rat really scare the hell of me, while I was doing the controlling in the DJ room. I just couldn't figure out why does it love to come out and say hello to me N times? Well needless to say, I was "dancing Agogo" on the chair, screaming and shouting. =X

Did something to my hair, and Yen said I look fresh with this hair. Chat with her for about half an hour while I was skiving off. hee. Today is just a tiring day for me - giving tuition in the morning; only have 1 hour break in-between the work; frightened off by that stupid rat; and tending to my "little sir" whom i known him to be. If this is going to be my daily routine, there's only 4 words to conclude: "I can die, man"~~~

Michelle didn't get into the finals of the Celeb Dance Meet. well, it's expected since that competition isn't fair enough. Not that i'm shielding my idol, but the previous event had showed that this is not a fair game at all! Can you imagine that come participants can just get into semi-finals without going through the first round of competition...? I find one of the celebs' sentence quite true, he said ?I'm already over 50, certainly the judge will rather choose a 25-years old than me as a dancer." Moreover, I thought the judge is only supposed to give comments on their dancing skills and not their dancing costume, make-up whatever it may be. But the judges are doing otherwise - instead of commenting on their dances, their costume were criticized too. What the hell man~~ There;'s this stupid old man tried to take advantage of Michelle during the photo-taking session. Idiot... Pervert! Oh my, come on, D where are you? she is in need of your comfort now!...

Suddenly feel that my instinct is quite accurate. Strongly believe that michelle will definitely get into semi-finals and she did. This time around, I have a bad omen that she surely can't get into finals, and it really happened! Well once again, not that she's weak or whatever, is just something lies with the judges and the competition itself... urgh

2006-12-02T16:42:00.000+08:00

Michelle's Dance

This hot Celebs Dance Meet is currently held in Shanghai. Michelle participated in the 6th round of Celebs Dance Meet, and managed to get into the semi-finals. Her dance was Lumba, and the name for her dance music was Xiang Yu, which was sung and dedicated by Mich's friend. =)

2006-11-18T22:55:00.000+08:00

A's finally over. All this while I have been waiting for this day to come, and i just can't imagine that it came so fast!! Before the paper, we thought that our life will have no worries after A's and everything can be easily solved by then. But little did we know that worries will never cease, in fact, I have more worries than before. Worrying about how to get around my life during the long hols break; worried about jobs to take up; and worried about what's their next step?!

Currently found a full time job at dad's restaurant, and part-time job as tuition teacher and graphics designer. Though the idea of working may turn one off, I'm just as excited as what would my life being a tuition teacher and graphics designer. Will it be as colourful as the graphics? or will it be as dreary as a "teacher's life" we passively assume it to be?

Growing up in this family has no identity at all. No one knows that you bear this surname, and you are the child of this family. Though the name of "protect" seems nice to hear, be mindful of the reality that you will no longer be known. I just don't understand why are the Asians still holding on to the mindset of "favouring males over females". No matter how hard the female tried, she will never enjoy the same status as the males even though her achievements may have surpassed them. So what's the point of living in this kind of family where you are neither recognized nor praised for whatever things you have done and contributed?

I just realise that there still exist fairness in this world. I'm angered when she embarrassed me in front of the outsiders. I can't defend for myself for I know if I did, I would be falling into her trap! I saw her cheeky smile, and that really give me a sudden prick into my flesh. For once, i shall concede defeat! But I swear I will never give her peace from now onwards. The day of JUST came, her picture was cut off from the newspaper that was meant to be an advertisement. *laugh* A penny of my thought: "I didn't know that you have your ends too. Well, you deserve it. That teach you a lesson for being rude to others!"

Heaven is not blind - the bad one will have their own deserts and they shouldn't be felt sorry for. Living at the expense of others will do you no good because YOU WILL BE DISGRACED IF YOU EVER TRY TO DISGRACE OTHERS!

just want to let her know: Learn to respect others and others will naturally respect you!
~~~

2006-07-23T09:23:00.000+08:00

SONG: Alone
Tired of school. Tired of homework. Tired of mistrust. Tired of living. Sometimes, I just wish that I can sleep longer, or maybe forever so that I won't be bothered by having to excel or some other woes. And it is a good way of closing the eyes to the ugly side of the humans. I feel so drained now, and it seems like no one would understand what I'm feeling now.

2006-07-17T00:33:00.000+08:00

Song: Hui Se Kong Jian
just feel that life is so sucks. Having to do the same thing everyday, over and over again. It's so dull and meaningless. I see no point why man should live in this world. Tonnes of work are pushing and pressing you, and it is nvr ending. What's the point of living when you were only given a short-period to live? All things will still become zero again; everything has to restart again; but the dull and boring life of man will still stay. I see no point!

2006-07-03T17:35:00.000+08:00

Went on a shopping spree with Sis-in-law and Mummy today. Quite a fruiful trip indeed. Here's the list of what I've bought:
2 T-shirts
1 jeans-skirt
1 pants
1 pair of white-coloured shoes

All these total up to $183 and mummy is my ATM machine. Hee, Thought she will scold me for being a spendthrift, but she didn't and said it's fine since I rarely go out.

After shopping, we went to this restaurant called Kopitiam to have our lunch. I ordered a plate of spaghetti and was the last to be served. All thanks to the muddle-headed waiter who mistaken my spaghetti as nasi lemak. Had the wrong order changed and both mummy and sis-in-law laughed at my "foodlessness".

Slept on the way home. The air-con is so nice and comfortable that I nearly refuse to get out of the car.

Read one novel that day and found that particular line quite nice and special. It says: When a boy and a girl get together is like taking a bus. You end up on a particular bus because the right number comes along at the right time.
And that guy replied her, "Let me know, am I the right number? Are you ready to board the bus?" I won't say it's sweet or what, just find this question and response very meaningful.

Guys, thanks for always being there for me. I am fine now and thanks for the effort and encouragement you all have given me.

I'm lost!

2006-05-14T22:39:00.000+08:00

Seriously I dun really know what happened to me recently. I'm at my wits end now! I'm becoming more and more introvertive now, I want to be alone and I dun want others to interrupt me. I tend to lock myself in my room, and what I will do is just lying on the bed staring at the ceiling. Is like so nth to do lah. I don't feel like studying and I don't feel like talking to anyone now! Even if I open my mouth, all I will just say a few words like "what time is it now" or maybe quarrel with pple whom i come across. Put on a bad face these few days. Tend to think that no one cares about me. It doesn't matter whether I exist or not. NO appetite at all, I only manage to take a few bites. Tend to throw my temper easily and unnecessary on my nephews. DON'T ASK ME WHAT HAPPENED BECOS ME MYSELF DON'T EVEN KNOW!

this is the only thing to conclude: I totally give up on myself now!

2006-05-05T16:58:00.000+08:00

Keep hearing "muggers" this word recently. Not that I want to become mugger, I have no choice!

Just told mas that I'm very stressed recently. I dunno what sort of stress is that because of the fact that I'm still lazing around. Mas and Ashita assured me that they are having this kind of problem too. I keep having this thinking that I need to retake my A level next year. I dunno why. Is like the moment i think of this, I feel like crying. I wanted to tell my mum about my worries, but I feared that she will think otherwise. Because she still has those typical "malaysian towards abroad studies" mindset, if I retake the exam, she will think that I'm just weak and lousy. But it may not be the fact that I'm weak. I may just want to improve on the grades of that specific subj, similar to those who want to retake their Chinese. sigh...

History belongs to the past, and it shouldn't repeat itself again in the future!

Feel like friends is just nth to her, she's simply taking advantage of her every friends. Who she think she is? Is like she only comes to me when she's bored or need help from me. To her, what's friends for? Is it only for her own gain? So idiotic~~ Moreover, we had known each other for 11 yrs, and this is the kind of "treatment" i receive from her. What's the point of having such friends? Sometimes really disagree with the statement that friends are there to help you, share your woes and happiness.... pissed now!

Life is like a straw, it sucks !

2006-04-25T21:50:00.000+08:00

Recently I'm very pissed with this person.. I dunno why.. Is like just can't stand her lah... I shan't say out his/her name... One thing really can't stand him/her is he/she keep trying to act smart, act as if he/she knows everything... Pls lah, who you u are ?

pissed........

K Box

2006-04-08T22:16:00.000+08:00

Math lecture was disastrous - all thks to Mas' horrendous laughter. We, no I shall say the whole lecture group was affected by her lah... Laughing non-stop.. Sigh, she's really a crazy woman. Pathetic sia~ I didn't pay attention during math lecture as I was rushing through my Chinese essay.

Million of thanks to Wen Chien, Mie Lin, Hui Wen and Yu Feng for celebrating me n Mas bday. It's really very enjoying! Sang duet with Mielin and our chemistry not bad too.. hehe. We keep pao mei yan (make those kind of lovers' faces) at each other, until Wen Chien couldn't stand it. So next time, wenchien pls sit down. =P The most terrible song I had was Shan Hu Hai. Omg, it's so disastrous lah.. HuiWen was the most amusing one, suddenly from high to low.. That part was damn funny lah. I couldn't help but laughing lah.. Laugh until tears come out.. Then I sang until voice almost become hoarse. Omg, what a sexy voice I nearly had~ hee...

My favourite duet was zhi zao lang man. That was so nice lah~ Well, everyone laughed at my horse song.. What's there funny about? It's just an old song mah.. aiyo... Then went to eat dinner in a Thai-restaurant. The dishes we ordered were not bad, quite delicious. WC had a big appetite lah, still not full after eating and finished drinking the TOM YAM SOUP. Wc arhx... looks like there won't be this one day for u to control your diet. hehe. Suddenly I realised one thing - I'm not good at drinking Tom Yam Soup. Make my ear so itchy bcos I always have ear itch whenever I take sour and spicy food. Dunno who teased me about drinking the plain water lah.. Aiyo, maybe I'm a miser by nature, 20 cents is also money what, we should not waste money! LOLx

Then took public bus home and I was nearly molested by this malay guy on the way home. He was fat and took up so much space from me lah. I ended up having to squeeze with him. It was due to this squeeze that I know of his intention. He was feigning sleeping and opened his arm very big until to the extent that his elbow nearly touched my ehem... Well, my most fundamental instinct was to protect myself and use my arm to shield. At first, I thought I was being oversensitive and wanted to try again. The more I drew back, the more he keep pushing in. And finally I realized sth bad is going to happen on me. I said " sorry excuse me" and wanted to change to other seats. But he refused to let me out and just sat there properly. I was so worried and held myself tightly throughout the whole journey. Didn't even have a wink lah. Throughout the whole journey, I was so uptight and nerve-racking, fearing that he will harm me. If he really did sth to me, I will surely scream like hell lah.. I really dread Malaysia public bus now. It's so unsafe! But luckily it's over~ phew~~~

Had econs MCQ test on thurs and scored 13 out of 15.. Well, I studied like hell lah, if I didn't score well, I can really go and knock my head on the wall liao.. Got back GP block test liao.. Sigh, I got D7, just need 1 mark to pass... sigh... But according to Ms Ng, my GP essay already improved le, but I still need to work very hard on it. Hope tmr will be a better day!

Abhors!

2006-04-05T19:54:00.000+08:00

Frankly speaking, I don't feel like getting back my econs block test. I'm very sure and confirmed to say that I'm that F grader. My mcq is disastrous, DRQ is not completed, and I have no confidence in essay at all. All these combination already assured me that I flung the test. Maybe you will say tt I'm just being pessimistic, but currently I'm not! I know my limits and have premonition that I'm not going to do well in this block test. True enough, I scored AO for chem. As for math, my strongest subj is already a D, so what can I expect for my Econs? I expected to fail my GP too, since my points were not well-elaborated.

I don't really know what happened to me. Is like I keep telling myself that I will score well next time, but I'm just deceiving myself. I'm like, going to school aimless. Just go for the sake of going. Nth goes in my head, and I try hard to stay focus, but I can't! WHY?! I DUNNO!!

I don't want to face the reality but on the other hand, I want to wake up now! Completely wake up from my sleep! It makes me lost my direction....

Extremely depressed now...

2006-04-04T22:05:00.000+08:00

Listening to: Always With Me

I'm getting to hate probability more and more now... Stared so hard and still even can't figure out what's the equation is about. Not productive during math tut. Can't help it since brain chose to switch off that time.

As usual, chem lecture was boring today. But today's lecture pace was so "fast" lah, until to the extent I nearly dozed off. Chatted with Mas. Gossiped about Hello Kitty(HK). Oh pls, it's just a game, pls don't take it real. Pple may not be as naive as you, and he may not adore you like "you are his everything". Pls stop this! Hair stand when I think of this. Sickening~

2006-04-02T22:48:00.000+08:00

had a tiff with my dad this afternoon. to me, is a small matter, so what for so angry? very very unhappy now...

suddenly have a crave for crasin - berry raisin. sigh, today didn't really eat anything.. hungry but no appetite at all...

hope tmr is a better day for me!

2006-04-01T21:42:00.000+08:00

Listening to: This Magic Moment

Went for therapy session this afternoon and it's so painful. My back is swathed in bandages, feel like a mummy now... And I'm full of medicated oil smell! It stinks!

Went shopping with mummy. Since I'm burdened with this strong stinking smell, I can't try on any clothes. So sad.. Asked mummy to try for me since our size are almost the same. True enough, she managed to fit onto the blouse I fancied and bought me one. Went to eat lunch at SDS. Nearly place wrong order - kiddy meal. The waiter was stunned. Just realised that I placed the wrong order. godz, made a fool of myself in front of pple.

Still suffering from this horrendous pain... When can I be freed from this torment?

2006-03-30T22:25:00.000+08:00

Songs: When you said nothing at all

Got back chem test paper today. It was disastrous. scored 36.6 out of 100. I expected this to happen since I didn't really sit down and study. A lot of careless mistakes committed, but it's too late, we can't change history. Confessed to Ms Goh that I was very depressed recently. Tend to cry very easily and don't know the reason at all. Moody in the morning, keep diaoing people (which mas claimed me to be), suddenly become bit cheerful in the afternoon... But everyone keep saying that I bottled up my feelings, I didn't. In fact, I did try to find someone to talk to, but it doesn't seem effective to me.

Back keep aching these few days. Can't even walk and sit well. Perhaps it's due to the weather~ Well, came to realise that therapy session doesn't help at all. Sigh~

Did some tests in metrics.com, and the result is:
22% introvert

This is the only thing i can remember.

2006-03-29T20:35:00.000+08:00

I'm very pissed recently, and I don't really know why. Very easily annoyed. I don't really like myself... Is like I keep thinking that everything is not within my control, and no matter how hard I tried, I still can't get it. Tend to cry easily recently. This morning, I lied to Mas that I wasn't crying, but it's untrue. I don't know why I cried, tears just seeped out itself. Again, crying is not within my control.

Went on shopping spree that day, here's the list of what I bought:
3 pairs of shoes ( 2 high heels, 1 slippers)
1 pink T-shirt
2 jeans skirt
1 handbag
1 pair of earrings

Wend Orchard for lunch today. Ordered a lunch set and find it quite worth it - Ocean's Twelve (Salmon and potato fries), free flow of drinks and mushroom soup. The amount of the food they gave was so large, until to the extent that I was already half full after eating 1 Salmon fillets. "Donated" the potato fries to Sze Hao but he didn't eat it since he was in charge of Mas' leftovers. Went to take neoprints after lunch. Took the shots twice and I was bit disatisfied with the second one.

Chatted with Mas on train on the way home. Slept through the whole journey after Mas got off. Missed Kranji stop by 1 station, reached Yew Tee instead. Took train back to Kranji - wasted 8 mins~~~~

Friends, please bear with me these few days. I know I shouldn't flare up so easily and cause unhappiness to you all. But I don't really know why have I become so hot-tempered recently. Really very sorry!!!

Suntec Trip

2006-03-05T10:25:00.001+08:00

Had math test in the morning, but didn't manage to finish it. It's rather sad to say that I had solved and found the answer but didn't have time to fill it in. Sigh. Today's Econs lecture was extremely boring, can't even absorb what Mr Chu had said..

We had a Suntec trip (a career exhibition) after school and it was damn boring lah~ There's bus to drive us there. Instead of admiring the beautiful scenery along the way, I ended up dozing off. It was really tiring for me lah, having to wake up in the mid of the night to look after and teach my crying nephew spelling. Sigh. Reach Suntec, walked with Wen Chien and Mas to "take" all those brochures. Actually that's redundant lah - I already made up my mind on which Uni to go and which course to take up. I just go for the sake of going. After the exhibition, everyone PS me. Mas went to eat dinner with her band friends, while that Sotong CHien HCLF, went to accompany her Dardar. Mielin is the only good person that nvr PS me (hee~). Went to BK with Fel, Mielin, Yu Fung, and Thomas to play bride + Dai Dee. Thomas is so funny lah, having to buy so many chocs for Fel. Fel ended up distributing the chocs to us. In the midst of the game, Clement, Jiehui and Roy joined us. Then we had a hard time to choose where to have our dinner. At last, we chose to eat at Just Noodles (bcos it's cheap! hee). I ordered a bowl of rice with Teriyaki Chicken. It's rather nice too. Played a few rounds of bridge, then Mielin and I received treats from Clement. haha.. After that, the group sent me to the MRT station, and HOME SWEET HOME lah~

One thing I observed at the JUST NOODLES was a triangle "ehem" within the group. Mielin sat with me, but Roy swopped place with me to play bridge. Ehem.... And Yu Fung was just beside Mielin. Hmm... Know liao right? haha... Shan't make it so obvious. hee... It's so funny lah, esp to see that Mielin blushed like a tomato. LOLs.

I'm rather pissed with this group of backstabbers. Is like what they behave in front of you is totally different from what they did behind ur back lor. Pls lah, I mean what's your intention of putting up in your blog to lecture and criticise people? I see no point lor, aren't you making it so obvious? It's like nt only 1 person lah. Well, since they are so obsessed in blogging and criticising pple's character and labelling him/her hypocrites, what's the difference of calling yourself hypocrites which you were so fake in front of people, and totally different behind our back. Before you want others to self-reflect, take a look at yourself in e mirror first, you should be the one who needed self-reflection lah. If you want others to respect you, all the more you should respect your ownself first.

20.01.06

2006-01-21T08:02:00.000+08:00

A bit unwell this morning, so didn't run during PE lesson. Phew! So I was spared from this tedious 3.2 run. Should I consider it a blessing or an unfortunate? Because I will have to run extra fast for next tue, since I don't know my timing at all. Well, hopefully I can clear my run. Then went to these math and econ lecture. Math wasn't that bad, at least my brain was switched on this time round. But it immediately switched off when it came to Econ lecture. I even took a 2-min nap when Mr Chu showed us the video clip. Hee, luckily he didn't find out... Then finally came the afternoon. PARTY WORLD ! YAY!

Went to PW with Wen Chien, Mie Lin, Mas and Huiwen. On the way there, Wen Chien displayed her blurness in front of us. She's like from different channel lor, always out of our topic... Wonder why I can know her for 5 years?! Sigh.. So suai. Then someone farted on the train, omg! it's so disgusting and unpleasant! Aiyo, that blur sotong even said out those things so loudly. Feel so embarrassed to know her...

YAY! then finally reached PW. We chose quite a number of songs, but mostly were Chinese one. Then Wen Chien had not much chance to sing the English songs she had chosen. At first, I thought 4 hours is far too much le, didn't expect that it is not enough at all. hee.. Then my chemistry with Mie Lin quite good, esp that duet song, Ai De Zheng Hao. When the chorus came, my part as the male and mie lin as the female sang quite well. But the key still very high, I tend to sing until very high (sometimes out of tune). Huiwen's singing not bad and I didn't know that she has such a deep voice lah~ That Mas arx.., not bad too, the way she sang is so different from the way she speaks and talks. She's so lady-like, gentle and soft when she's singing but she's so rowdy and her voice is so hoarse in real life lah... (a PAIN to the ears.. hee). Mie Lin's key is a bit high, that's why she can sing those songs sang by female singers so well. Wen Chien.. sometimes sang out of tune... sigh, but she will be very good if she didn't have this problem.. Oops.. hee. That Mas took off her shoes and even showed and swing in front of us lah.. Aiyo. so BUSOK! hee.. Then I kept using her hp to take photos of myself until Hui Wen "couldn't stand me".. LOL.

Then we went to Sakae Sushi to have our dinner. Mie Lin told me something shocking, well, since it's a secret, so I shan't disclose. blehz. Sakae was full house lah, but luckily we managed to find one table. Huiwen's seat was so disturbing, bcos the place where the waiters put our bill was beside her lah. *can sense that she's annoyed* Then we chatted and talked about many topics. I find mielin's encounter bit scary lah.. haha..

Then we went to take neoprints. The 5 girls were putting on different poses. And the effects were not bad too. Huiwen and Mielin were the designer of our neoprints. Sigh, when it came my turn to design, perhaps hadn't touched neoprints for long time le, I was so slow lah.. Half way through the designing, I swopped with Mie Lin while Mas swopped with Huiwen.. Then took train back home.. Wen Chien experienced something bad! And her expression is damn funny lah.. Well, I couldn't help but laughing... On the way, met my primary school friend, Qiu Ting, then we went back home together.. HOME SWEET HOME ! I miss my bed so much!!!

I think our next meeting will be after A-levels, which will be so further away... But I really enjoy myself today. It's really very fun! Never been so happy for long time le! Girls, thanks! =)

Dan Ren Wu - sung by Silver Ang

2006-01-14T13:24:00.000+08:00

This lyrics is actually talking about Michelle's character in The Rainbow Connection. Find it quite true and meaningful. Luckily the ending is not the same as this lyrics "When time left us so much troubles, I'll rather stay put than moving forward", or else..... I'll surely hate this show! Yeah, Michelle accepted David...! hee.. Though I may not like Silver very much, I think her singing improves greatly this time round. At least I'm "mesmerized"! hee...